Its the little things...

That I really wish I had someone to share with, as well as the big ones.
I noticed lately that when something happens, either with Alexa or Selah, or just something small, I really want to share it with someone. Its just something that I find funny, or that bugs me, or just interesting in general and I just want to share it with someone who understands me and my family/situation.
I guess its just really hard because I used to have that...and now I don't.

I kinda got used to that during high school. Never really having a really close friend, who cared about the little things in my life. Who was CONSTANTLY interested it what was going on, or didn't mind hearing the thousand little weird things I just simply enjoy sharing with others.

Don't get me wrong, I know I have my family, my sisters especially, who I do get to share a lot with. Who are willing to listen and love me and what to know what is going on in my life. I just I just mean, someone outside the family.
Why that makes such a big difference, I don't know.
But somehow it does.

I've just started noticing more and more how there are things I want to share, in the moment (just though a text, phone call, conversation, message, etc) that I don't have a friend to share with anymore.


And well its hard.
That's it, its just really hard.