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December 7, 2009

I was recently talking to some friends of mine, about how some people are very blunt, while others of often more private and subtle about things. And though there are benefits and drawbacks to both, its great that there are a variety of people out there.
I tend to be a very blunt person. I'm very opinionated, and in most settings (if it doesn't have to do with large groups of people) I share those opinions. This isn't always the best thing, but I'm in the processing of learning to decipher when its best to share or just keep my mouth shut.
One thing I've noticed though, is since I am such a blunt person, people expect me to be so with every aspect of my life, and if I'm not being open and loud about it, most (not all) assume there isn't any thing else there, nothing deeper.
In all honesty, there are quite a few things I keep to myself, or share with just very close friends. Sometimes I feel like a fake, because people expect me to be so open about things...but there are just certain areas in my life where it is really hard for me to open up about.
I try to be myself, and people have commented to me that I couldn't be anything/anyone else even if I tried. Which I greatly appreciate (though there have been many times I have not liked this).
At the same time, i keep quite a bit to myself, which is for the best since it would not be good to share every thought, inclination, feeling, etc, to all those around me.

I'm not sure where I am going with this, but a friend of mine mentioned that sometimes people can express things better through writing, whether just to themselves or to others. I guess I'm just trying to put my thoughts together, and figure out what it is I am actually thinking.