Summer

Summer has begun and it has begun well. Although I was very apprehensive about how this summer was going to go, God had already started giving me peace about it. But surprisingly in very unusual ways.
The Friday that Finals started, my first on beginning at 3 in the afternoon, I discovered that I could not take the summer math class I had planned on taking. In addition to that I found out that my AP Stats credit did not count for math. Meaning I would now have to take at least 3 hours of math classes at A&M, but probably more. This was hard to think about since I am not a fan of math, and am not good at calculus. But God used that as an opportunity to really understand the verse "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34). I had just posted that on my facebook earlier in the morning. God was showing me how I was not following Him in that moment, by worrying about the summer I was not trusting what God has in store for me. God used that verse and my father to show me that I was being hypocritical in saying I was trying to trust God while worrying about school. And after seeing that I was not trusting God, I looked on my wall and saw the note a friend had wrote me earlier in the semester "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you" (Jeremiah 29:11). (by the way, thank you again for that note, it has helped a lot). Almost immediately I felt relieved, and stopped worrying so much about what I could not change anyways. The Lord is so very gracious.
Then I found out that my mom had talked to a friend of mine, but didn't think it was a good idea to tall me what was said between them. That was hard to hear because I am a very curious person. But the Lord just gave me peace and let me know that He loved me. I needed to be loved, and I felt loved. The Lord is merciful and He tells us what we need to know about Him. He wants me to be curious about Him and desire to learn more and more about Him and His will for my life.
Then I arrived home I was greeted warmly by my family, and some friends. But was confused at how to act towards one other.
But as the summer has gone on, things have begun to take a turn for the better.
I might not be taking Biology or math this summer, though I might get some other classes in, which will still be good.
And I have gotten to hang out with my best friend quite a bit already. An unexpected blessing that I am extremely thankful for.
I will need to continue to pray, and be more diligent in keeping God has my focus since I won't have as much structured church time (as I did during the semester).

Lord, You are my life and my love. Help me to stay focused on You.
I want to dwell on Your greatness, Your mercy, what You have done for me.
Keep my focused on Your plan, and not let my selfish desires get in the way.
Thank You for Your grace, and all Your blessings. And my great friends.
I love You Lord.